The reason

I always wonder, how come no one is there for me whenever i am down. I realized it today, it is because i keep everything to myself. Keeping problems to myself has become a habit of mine since i am in primary 4. Why? whenever i say it out, its either no one really care about it or i get scolded instead. So might as well keep it to myself. Eventually, this habit grew up with me until now. I tend to keep every single thing to myself and put on a 'mask' when i am with other people. Not much people really understands me. This is the reason why i feel lonely whenever i am alone in my room.